Too Overwhelming???

2010 Goals (not resolutions... Goals!):

1) Work harder at my part time job to pay off some frivolous, and not so frivolous, things that we have purchased for ourselves (i.e. a few pieces of furniture; her old credit card debt from having to pay for a car accident- not a crazy-huge amount at all in the grand scheme of things, however still hard for us to pay off to wipe the slate clean when we are just making ends meet as it is; other outstanding bills for doctor visits; paying some people back; etc...)

2) Have a professional clean out both of our computers - my desktop and her laptop. Get an external hard drive to store all of our stuff so the computers don't end up crashing! (3500 picures and counting... 1000+ songs and counting... etc.)

3) Save money for a new computer - a MacBook or MacBook Pro! My desktop is still hanging in there and actually doing a great job since I purchased it when I started college several years ago, however it would be nice to update and get a laptop so I can stop using my babe's...

4) The classic - Try to lose some weight. I know I talked about this in an earlier post... and just let me say, I made no progress and actually gained weight! Not fun... Plus it is impacting SOOOO much of my daily life: 

• I've gotten stretch marks. I've never had kids, or really plan to, so it is overwhelming to think that I have a tummy fully of stretch marks with no benefit from it, like a new baby to be proud of or anything... Plus, I have been asked more times than I would like to recall, when I am due or how far along I am! COME ON WOMEN.... This is practically a cardinal rule... common sense people... Women should ALWAYS know better than to ask a question like this!!! I should know by now that common sense is far from an automatic birth trait an individual is born with, but still... COME ON!!!! Unfortunately... this is where I carry the bulk of my weight... So this is something I am always dealing with and ready to be rid of. Or at least start to make steps to be rid of!
• I'm more inhibited in my sex life, which has NEVER been the case, ever, in my life! I've always enjoyed sex, and I still do, don't get me wrong here... I just don't feel as open as I used to. It is harder for me to switch things up and be excited about exploration, if you will... The sex that we do have is amazing - The best I have ever had, so it is frustrating for me to not always have the energy to put towards this important part of our relationship. I know that my babe does not care at all... She has told me this many, many times. Over and over again. It is still hard for me though...
• I am uncomfortable. Every day, I can see the changes that I am beginning to make for my increasing weight. Again, don't get me wrong... I still have an okay athletic built as I have always played some kind of sport, however there are some serious changes that I need to make... I don't want to look like I'm about ready to pop out a baby, or feel pressure in my tummy when I bend down to grab something off the floor or tie my shoe, or feel the twinge in my stomach when a new stretch mark is coming... UGH... MOVING ON...
• My portion control SUCKS!!! This will be the start of my battle. Being more conscious of the amounts of food that I eat at each meal. Okay, I'm happy with this being my jumping off point! 
• Maybe at some point, get our own exercise equipment. We canceled our gym membership because we never used it... ever... We did get P90X (the new big fad in exercising) however we aren't using that either... I'd hate to spend the money on something bigger than a few DVD's, however living in Wisconsin, getting out an exercising in negative degree wind chill, or 8-12 inches of snow is a little overwhelming in itself.

I think that is plenty for now. I don't want to overwhelm myself here... I'd really like some of this to come to fruition! 

To be revisited...